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Eleven
The ichneumon wasp provides for its
progeny by injecting its eggs into the body of a caterpillar. When the eggs
hatch, the ichneumon larvae begin eating their host from the inside out –
taking great care to preserve the heart and central nervous system, so as to
keep their victim alive (and fresh) as long as possible.
“Finally,”
writes scientist/essayist Stephen Jay Gould, “the larva completes its work and
kills its victims, leaving behind the caterpillar’s empty shell. Is it any
wonder that ichneumons, not snakes or lions, stood as the paramount challenge
to God’s benevolence during the heyday of natural theology?”
I am the criminal with no accuser,
the man afire among people who refuse to see flames. I walked three miles from
the motel to the lab, wearing the same clothes as the day before. Nobody
noticed. I came home. Jessie said nothing; she smiled and poured me a lemonade.
I’m dying to know how she explained my absence to the kids, but I didn’t dare
ask.
Because I fucked a girl four years older
than Marcus.
I walk with a cloud of gnats
about my head, bedeviled by motives and menace. Blackmail? I would have
received a demand. Revenge? I picture Nefertiti raped by her stepfather,
reaping karmic retribution through any man his age. But she seemed too…
together for this.
I’m
at my desk, making entries in next week’s schedule, when two observable facts
announce their presence. One: the University Café. Two: Tuesday afternoon.
Conclusion: Kelly.
At
lunchtime, I hop on my bike and follow the old route to the bead shop. I open
the door, the bells jangle, and I am pleased (finally!) to get a response from
someone. Kelly’s eyes grow wide; she tightens her grip on the edge of the
counter. I approach at a measured pace and speak the only word I can think of.
“Nefertiti.”
Kelly
blinks her lashes theatrically. “Nice to see you, too. What the hell do you want?”
I
take a jade ring from a basket and balance it on my pinkie.
“You
don’t know what ‘Nefertiti’ means.”
“Foggiest,
darling. Egyptian queen?”
“You
didn’t set me up?”
“Are
you still on this shit? Jesus! So my son was on the same five acres when you
nailed me on a putting green. Get over it! Why are you even here, Hopkins? Are
you horny, is that why you’re here? Because, at the moment, I’m having a
regular and satisfying relationship with a big pink plastic dildo!”
The
door jangles open. Kelly smiles.
“Why
do they always come in on a word like ‘dildo’?”
A
fiftyish woman with fiercely perfect blonde hair arrives at the counter.
“I’ve
got these linen pants with a sleeveless top – sort of orange and brown, safari
colors, very Kenya – and I’m looking for something dramatic to set it off.
Maybe a pendant.”
Kelly
takes her to a corner with African masks and jewelry, leaving me at the
counter, trying to rattle my brain into the present reality.
One:
Kelly’s look of surprise was genuine. Two: no response at all to the name
“Nefertiti.” Three: total misinterpretation as to the meaning of my visit.
Four: if I go so far as to explain who Nefertiti is, I have just created a
witness where previously there were none.
I
slip out the door, a phantom afire, and am soon rolling above The El Camino,
headed for the safety of my laboratory. Disparage the scientist all you want,
but he is well equipped to understand when he is wrong, and when to abandon a
lost cause.
At the end of the afternoon, the
name Pisarro appears on my email.
Hopkins –
Call me a weak woman, but I received
the following this morning, and I can’t imagine that they came from you. Fun is
fun, but what the hell are you getting yourself into?
Please don’t answer this. After the
other day, I’m going to need some time before I trust you again.
What
follows – a forwarded email – comes from an address beginning “Ramses16@…” Attached are several images of
myself in flagrante delicto with
Nefertiti. The subject line reads Geneticist
Fails Carbon Dating.
Dr. Solenin is a tall, elegant man,
Jamaican by birth, who always reminds me of Nelson Mandela. He works in the
administrative building across campus, and almost never visits the lab. When he
does, it’s noteworthy.
“Dr.
Solenin!” I pivot from my chair and greet him with a handshake. “What brings
you here?”
He
studies his hands, looking anxious. “It’s not good, Hopkins. Please. Follow
me.”
He
leads me down the hall to Marty’s office. Marty is gone. Solenin sits at
Marty’s desk and waves me into a chair. The blood is thrumming through my head.
I’m trying to formulate an appropriate reaction: one-half concern, one-half
shock, followed by a simmering indignation.
“It’s
about your drug test.”
Or
confusion – that I can do.
“The
one you took Wednesday,” he says. “It indicated the presence of MDMA.”
MDMA? What the…?
“Ecstasy?”
I say.
He
nods, and leans forward on the desk.
“Here’s
how it goes from here. You need to report back to the testing center this afternoon
– within the hour, actually, before it closes. If this test confirms the
positive, you will be suspended without pay until the personnel committee can
meet to discuss your situation. I’m very sorry.”
Photo by MJV
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